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Friday, September 29

The Banquet

Caught The Banquet with Huang Lin, Pei Xin, Qian Bing, Fang Ming, Joanne and Li Wen just now at Lido. Didn't arrange to go out with them initially but met them at the bus stop and so decided to go with them since my date with my pri sch teacher and friends has been cancelled.

HL, PX and I went to Far East to have Oyster Mee Sua. I didn't order that but ordered some sausage egg cheese crepe thingy which is super nice but oily. And it's fried. Yea my sore throat's never gonna to heal. too bad ><

The Lido ppl made things difficult for us by not allowing us to get tickets at first lor. But eventually we got it.

The Banquet's quite nice. Another version of Hamlet. It's NC16 so it's bloody as expected. I like the twist in the ending, excluding all the blood. The beginning part... was kinda slow-paced and I almost fell asleep. Not a bad movie. A pretty good one to end my week though. shall rate it a 6.5/10.

After the movie we walked to Orchard MRT and since today's Huang Lin's birthday we decided to get her something. PX waited with HL at the station while the rest of us went off in search of ... a cake.

Bought a strawberry one at Breadtalk since FM said that HL don't like chocolate cakes. Then we went wondering how to get a lighter to light the candle. FM borrowed one from this restaurant. haha super funny. and she held the lighter the wrong way. Scare us all la. Then we lighted the candle and started to walk towards the mrt station holding the cake with the lighted candle. hey we looked super comical. Then we passed HL her cake and sang her a super loud birthday song right there at the junction between the orchard station and ngee ann city.

WHEE. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUANG LIN!

The next movie I so want to catch is ... Jackie Chan's Rob-B-Hood. Got charismatic Louis Koo leh, my all time favourite shuai ge~ Anyone on for watching that? I didnt get to watch Singapore Dreaming but it's ok... And HL also watched 'John Tucker Must Die' yesterday. What a coincidence.

Yea we got our exam scripts back today. I am quite satisfied with my results. I managed to pass all... which is a good thing. After coming back home from the movie, I became kinda moody. Cant blame me. Sometimes I wonder if I am giving away too much, too much for myself to cope. The toll on my emotions. What if one day I cant take it any longer and I just collapse. Nah I hope not.

Ok back to some not-so-emo stuff. I just realised that Cecilia aka my Mdm oso analyses horoscopes and she knows way more than I do. She really studies in depth but I just know a bit of stuff about every horoscope which is kinda like a loser. She 'reminded' just now that Geminis top the fickle list, Aquarius next and Libra last. These three signs are all air signs. All flexible and free but fickle. Wahaha. HL and I admit that we are fickle. But well I supposed there will be a time when the fickleness will be gone la. Anyway Geminis are not supposed to have early marriages. Late marriages suit them better as they are more mature then. Otherwise their marriages usually end up in divorces. This is according to some horoscope books I read. It's just in general. Yea no offence kaes.

My 'Do Re Mi Fa So' romance novel's halfway read. It's really interesting and the male protagonist in the book is oh-so-damn sweet. I shall go continue reading and maybe do some cross-stitching. Later~

My heart lives for your heart but you do not see me.

Thursday, September 28

Fever vs Ice Cream

I have a fever but I want to eat an ice cream. My granny bought some Cornette ice creams and I am dying to eat them. Sheesh. let me try to suppress my craving for a few minutes and if unsuccessful I will be away savouring a yummy ice cream (:

hmm I read shumin's blog. Her latest post is supposed to be pictorial fun-filled but apparently her blog has some problem and I can't see the pictures! there's supposedly a photo of me labelled 'diot bel' and she nicknamed me 'lovesick goddess'

Oh my sister. I am so NOT love sick.

I am already surrounded by love from friends and family. So loved that I felt so blessed. But I know her 'lovesick' refers to those boyfriend type but hello I am not ready to commit and currently indulging in my fantasy romance... which is oh-so-sweet.

Ha Did I tell you that my new handphone's such a beau? Love it to bits.

I watched 'John Tucker Must Die' with Pei Yu at Cine just now. Cool and funny but I will rate it as so-so cos I didn't like the ending. I was hoping John Tucker would change and become faithful but well I guess the film maker insisted on the 'A leopard never changes its spot' logic. Oh well.

The rope burn wound on my left hand is turning out to be pretty ugly. Grr I am tempted to peel off the dead skin.

That's all for this post I guess. I am going off to gulp down gallons of water to fight my fever and maybe treat myself to an ice cream. whee.

It's a blessing to give than to receive. That I have always believed.

Wednesday, September 27

Random

I feel happy cos I've got a brand new phone which is a real beau.

I feel sick cos I've a major headache that has been pestering me since this morning.

I don't feel like doing reflections for my China Immersion.

I feel like watching Singapore Dreaming before it stops showing in cinemas. Anyone on?

I better go do my reflections, gobble up some tablets to cure my headaches, pack my bag and head to bed. Cya.

Tomorrow shall be a better day.

Posts from BSP Camp

Back from Suntec City with a headache. I went with a headache then was ok when I was buying a handphone and then it came back to haunt me. I so HATE headaches.

But a happy thing is I BOUGHT A NEW PHONE... whee. samsung e900. It's a classic beauty. I love it to bits. My beau (:

Just now I was clearing and checking the messages on my handphone then I found 2 smses which I used to type my blog posts during BSP Camp in June this year. I was wondering if I should delete and forget about it but my decision in the end was to come online and blog it. Actually its nothing much. If you're interested, continue reading. Otherwise kindly click on the white cross in the red box on the top right hand corner of your monitor. Thank you.

(I dunno the order of the entries, and there are somemore entries written on foolscap papers... another time... )

Currently at the third lecture of the camp. Sitting at the front row and the speaker kept looking over at the sector my group is sitting in. I am trying not to fall asleep but it is hard cos everyone else' s falling asleep. And I am suddenly having second thoughts about going to CampERCI. I'll have to travel to Bukit Timah for the camp but well it's a service learning camp ohwells. I am just being hesitant. I will go in the end. Boring lecture. 40 minutes to go.

Leaving SSS now for DHS. I have this unwillingness to leave. An unknown unwillingness to break camp. The sky is blue. The grass is green. Nothing has changed but camp has ended. The facils are going out for dinner together at Causeway Point but I cant go cos I am meeting Jason and team for my POH project. Just now I handed out the messages that Shu Min and I wrote for the other facils. Then I like bu she de. Hm I may not've enjoyed the camp totally but it definitely made up part of my memories. Especially being the facil of shaolin, I may not be very close to them but they are really a wonderful lot. They wrote me a note and gave me their flag. They also seemed to like the bookmarks I made for them very much. BSP camp may not be the best but it is definitely not the worst (:

Sore throat, headache, flu

I woke up this morning with a really bad headache. And then I realised that I have a badly-blocked nose , fortunately I was still breathing. Ha that's one thing I am truly thankful for. I walked out of my bedroom, complaining about my illnesses and only to realise that there's no breakfast prepared for me.

SHEESH.

I am so used to life in Nanjing when a sumptuous spread of food would be prepared as my breakfast and back in Singapore? Everything changes. It's gonna take me quite some time to get used of it and revert back to my not-pampered lifestyle.

Thankfully, my dad returned home a while later with a packet of noodles. MY BREAKFAST. whee. But I was feeling super down la... all the flu and headaches are really making me miserable.

Until Shu Min gave me the link to a video on youtube.com featuring a MV of 'What Dreams Are Made Of' - ballad version. Aw. Now I am feeling better but my head's still spinning.

Crap. These three days since I reached Singapore from Nanjing, I have a weird appetite. When I see food, I feel like vomitting. I dont even feel like eating. The only time when I can eat is at home when there's home cooked food. When I see the food at the foodcourts or restaurants, my appetite's gone and I dont feel like eating anything.

This is bad. I will be meeting up my pri sch friends and teacher for lunch this friday. How am I going to eat and chat happily with this weird appetite of mine? When I see food and I dont feel like eating, guess what. I will start playing with it. Not that I want. Is just that I will try to pick it up and eat it but the coordination between my hand and brain's just not working.

I so hate eating now. And I am eating just to survive. Cos I want to live longer. There's still many places I havent been to, many types of coffee I havent tried, many sceneries I havent view, many mandopop tunes I havent listen to and of cos many people to whom I havent said 'I love you' to.

Life may be short but I want to live for as long as I can. Just so that I wont die with regrets (:

eh good news people. I am not snacking anymore. Cheers.

What Dreams Are Made Of (Hilary Duff)

Hey now
Hey now

Hey now
Hey now

Have you ever seen such a beautiful night?
I could almost kiss the stars for shining so bright
When i see you smile and i go
oh oh oh
i would never want to miss this
cuz in my heart i know what this is

[Chorus]
Hey now
Hey now
This is what dreams are made of
Hey now
Hey now
This is what dreams are made of
I've got somewhere i belong
I've got somebody to love
This is what dreams are made of

Have you ever wondered what life is about?
You could search the world and never figure it out
you don't have to sail all the oceans
no no no
happiness is no mystery and
here now it's you and me

[Chorus]

Open your eyes
(This is what dreams are made of)
shout to the sky
(This is what dreams are made of)

Then i see u smile and i go
oh oh oh
Yesterday my life was duller
Now everything's technicolor

[Chorus]

(Hey now)
(Hey now)
Hey now
This is what dreams
This is what dreams are made of

I just listened to this this morning for the first time and I am in love with it already.

Monday, September 25

Back in Singapore

whee reached Singapore last night. I was feeling terrible during the flight. Watched 'Over the Hedge'... very nice and cute. After my family fetched me from the airport, we went to the East Coast Lagoon Food Village to have dinner. Whee Singapore food.

So glad to be back in my homeland. Except that I have a terrible sore throat and that I dont get emperor treatment anymore. boohoo. haha now I have a godmom, goddad and godsis in Nanjing. How blessed I am.

One more good thing is that I can get a new phone!!! yay.

And and and we only need to return to school on thurs! But we will be getting back our exam papers. Nah not to worry. anyway I had a nightmare about my Chinese exam paper last night. I think i dreamt that i failed. ah =( touch wood.

I bought more than 10 Chinese romance novels from China! Ha. Gonna indulge myself in those fairytale romance these days. Love in real life's soooo complicated that I'd rather stay single. Love in those romance are so pure and sweet. ha.

alright I shall blog again later.

Wednesday, September 13

Blogging in Nanjing

I am using my buddy's laptop to blog now. Have been chatting online with my friends and offline with my buddy for quite a while. Today's a tiring day but it was fun. Aiya I think I should go off le. We were chatting about so much just now that my buddy cannot concentrate on doing her hw. ah evil me.

I am having a great time in Nanjing with my buddy and host family. I miss Singapore but not exactly home sick. I am less phobic towards dogs but gain a phobia towards spiral staircases. Yep I am happier every day and yea my chinese has improved tremendously whee.

I shall blog again next time. I write diary entries every day so not to worry about me forgetting the details. alright gtg cya.

Sunday, September 10

Nanjing Trip Part II

I am still awake. I have finished packing my stuff for the trip. Listening to the song 'Di Yi Tian' on fm933. Shall go off after I listen to it. I can't find my polyclinic medication... have to ask my mom tmr. That's the consequence of last minute packing. I am feeling numb. This is a choiceless trip. But I am blessed enough to have a nice buddy. But right now and right here, I am not excited. My heart feels heavy once more.

The song has ended. But I don't want to go off yet. Sheesh. I hope I won't shed any tear at the airport tmr. 2 weeks only ma. Scared what. Brave through the storm and be a warrior, bel. GO GO GO. Conquer your fears and you will ascend to greater heights. BE STRONG, DON'T CRY.

And I think I said the wrong thing to someone. Me and my big mouth. Alright I am off to Nanjing. I may blog there if my buddy allows me to use her computer. Otherwise I will write my blogposts in my new notebook then post them when I get back on the 24 of Sep. Ha I just remember I never post the posts that I wrote at BSP camp wahaha. another time.

CYA. Take care everyone. All the best for those taking O'levels and those with upcoming tests and exams. Thank you and sorry to Jason, Boon Kian and Sun Lu that I can't help anymore with the report. But I am crossing my fingers for our team to be shortlisted and hope to receive good news when I get back. CYA.

gonna miss Singapore and you whole people loads.

I don't want to leave but I have to go.

Saturday, September 9

Nanjing Trip

Just eleven more hours to go before I head for Nanjing, China. Mixed feelings I have now. My buddy's a really nice girl and she told me she has a doggie. Waha hope I can stay calm and not start screaming when I see that doggie. Whee at least I can experience how it feels like to have a pet for a week? I am looking forward to meeting my buddy and her family. But I don't feel like leaving Singapore, leaving everything behind... though it's for two weeks.

I am gonna miss Singapore and I know I will miss Nanjing when I am back in Singapore two weeks later. But at least I know I have a hospitable host to make my first week stay a pleasant one. How blessed I am.

Sometimes it is these things that make life wonderful, that make life worth living, that make life... life.

Went for the 'Forbidden City' musical at the Esplanade just now. I happened to meet YY at City Hall Stn. We are so fated cann. Initially we arranged to meet up at 2pm at City Hall then I thought I'll be late and told her to go herself first. Then we ended on the same train and only 1 cabin away from each other.

Ah how nice life is sometimes.

I like the musical very much. Some of the lyrics are really meaningful. I didn't buy the cd nor the booklet. Cos I have everything stored in my mind. Some lyrics which I like: (Some might not be correct so I can't exactly remember hee)

1. Why love when love hurts.
Why love when love ends
Why love when there is peace in making friends

2. Children need mother
lovers need each other
rivers need sea
prisons need key

haha that's all I can remember... I feel like how the Empress felt sometimes. That no one understands, that no one cares. But I think when you look around you, you might find love. Love comes in many forms.

And you know what, I feel loved by my family... cos of this Nanjing trip. I feel loved by my Nanjing buddy cos of the friendly emails she sent me. I feel loved by my friends when they tag.

Conclusion: Love is everywhere. Look around you.

I havent finish packing for Nanjing. There's so much to bring and I think I may not be able to sleep tonight. Cos I may just wake up and keep checking if I left anything out. Gonna wake up at 4am, that is if I am able to sleep.

40% excited.
20% worried.
20% scared
20% UNDEFINED.

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR EVERYTHING <3 CYA TWO WEEKS LATER~
In the meantime, love and be loved (:

Friday, September 8

My Poor Time Management

Are you Clockwise?
Find out if you're in clock shock...

TICK CLOCKED (16-30 POINTS)
You're OK with being where you need to be and doing what you need to do, but there is a big difference between being in time and being on time. Wouldn't it be nice to just be able to sit back and relax once in a while, instead of constantly playing catchup? Pick up a daily or monthly planner so you can see the big picture a little better, or learn to use the empty time of waiting to complete assignments tasks that will give you a little more personal time at the end of the day.

How true.

Are You A Star Crossed Lover?
Who is your perfect date?

Grounded-Girl:

You are an amazingly earthy girl. You have strong confidence in your own judgment; being in a relationship with an equal brings out the best in you. You will not hesitate to compromise if you feel it is the fair thing to do. You are not a clinging vine nor will you go against your principals just to be with someone. You plan way ahead and usually have your mind made up long before a decision is needed. You would rather stay at home and read a good book or work on a report that you want to get an A on than go out with someone that does not interest you. You are cautious about your feelings and work hard at not getting your feelings hurt. You will walk away from a confrontation if there is a chance of making a fool of yourself. Relationships do not come easily for earthy girls - many of them are loners. Trust is SO important to you that you will not give your heart away too quickly.

http://www.girlzone.com/quizzler/StarCrossedLovers_qu.html

Retail Therapy... at PP

Just reached home. I oveslept this morning. Supposed to reach school for my group's rehearsal at 7 am which means I should wake up at 6am but unfortunately, I couldnt... cos I slept at 2am last night.

I can't say that today is a good day for me. It didn't turn out right initially anyway. The Nanjing briefing... the rehearsals for teachers to preview. Nothing went my way. Yea I was grumpy, I looked sad, I felt emo. I kept wailing about not wanting to go Nanjing. Looking at other groups' items, I have to say that I feel that our group's performance is kinda inferior compared to them. I had an internal struggle within myself. On the outside, I was trying to convince people about just doing our best for our own performance. Deep down inside I felt the same as they do.

Geminis are known to have a dual personality. I guess that's what I have. A pair of twins with totally different ideals and perception, inside of me. It can be both good or bad. But for today, just now, in school, it wasn't good.

My heart was telling me that I don't want to go Nanjing. My mind was telling me 'No you don't have a choice.' I was lost. I was at a loss of what to do. I chose to rely on my mind. Cos my heart usually leads me to nowhere, after so many experiences. I started thinking about the stuff to pack to Nanjing. Then I remembered I don't have enough pairs of socks. And so I went to PP to get them. I didn't get any socks in the end cos Mini Toons don't sell the type I want anymore and there's no more '3 pairs for 5 dollars'.

I think I saw Kim Wakerman at Mini Toons with her friends. My heart was too heavy and I felt antisocial so I didn't really bother about the people and surroundings. I just wanted to walk my own lane and ponder about my thoughts in my own world.

Yea my day in school was bad right? But some things happened to turn it around. I felt better. Despite the fact that I was at PP all alone with an extremely heavy bag and a damn antisocial look on my face that says 'I am in a bad mood'. But well some things and people just turned it around. I am thankful for that.

Things that turned my bad day around:
1. Famous Amos (No nuts chocolate chip cookies)

2. The time I spent at MPH

3. The two books I bought from MPH

4. The friendly SBS bus 155 driver

5. The drizzle

Yea when I was walking from PP to the bus stop, it started drizzling. I didn't have an umbrella with me and since it's a drizzle, no big deal la. When I reached my bus stop, it was still drizzling, I walked in the drizzle and looked down at the ground. The raindrops hit me and the ground was slowly filled with round stains of water. It was windy, cooling. It's like the wind is trying to blow all my troubles and woes away. Yea.

Sometimes it's these little things in life that makes life. It's the pain and hardship that we've to go through that made us human. We should learn to treasure these things. Cos life is uncertain.

Life is really uncertain.

My neighbour's granny just passed away. She was alright when I went over to help her grandson fixed his internet connection. She was talking and smiling to me. I also remembered the day I watched 'The Devil Wears Prada', I was frightened by this cat loitering outside my flat. That day the floor was re-cemented and so I had to walk back to my flat on wooden planks. My sense of balancing is lousy la. Yea and I am kind of phobic towards cats then I was outside my neighbour's flat trying to shoo that cat away by making hissing sounds. Then the granny came out and told me not to be scared. Then she tried to help me shoo the cat away.

And now she is gone. It's so sudden. I am at a loss of words.

How uncertain life is...

If only we learn to treasure. If only we don't take things for granted.

Sometimes life is just too short... and uncertain.

Wednesday, September 6

DON'T CRY

I have decided not to bore you people out there with the details of my tough day. It's not going to entertain you much and I am lazy to relate all the terrible details so let's just forget it. I didn't manage to get any ethnic costume today but I got souvenirs from PS. I had a hard time deciding what to buy but well. I eventually bought something. Finally. One thing off my list.

I also bought myself a gift.
















There are two words on that crying face which I failed to focus with my camera and so there's no photo of it. It says 'DON'T CRY'.

It may seem weird for me to get such a gift for myself. But I just want to remind myself not to cry when times are tough. Not to give up in times of adversity. It would be great if I have friends who buy this type of gifts for me la but come on. Not everyone knows how I feel or how emo I can get.

Today many things happened and I kept on reflecting and kinda criticizing myself non-stop.

I was not a good leader for I sacrifice my group item to complement others. This is something that our nation leaders will not do. This is something that a good leader won't do. Therefore I am not a good leader. I failed in my duties to fight for the welfare for my group members.

I AM SORRY.

I am not used to arguing with people. I tend to give in. I prefer compromising to fighting. But well I don't think I did the right thing today.

This morning, I reached school yet I couldn't get anyone to unlock the classroom for us to use. My group members had to put up with the stuffiness at sec4 study area.

I AM SORRY.

sigh.

Do not cry when times are tough

Do not give up in times of adversity.

Be strong. Persevere.

Ah but still I am very sorry people.

How come you are still striving to be the soul-giver when you can't even help yourself?

Bad-Mood Day

My day didnt start off right. Neither did it end off well. I am so glad I am back at home. SO VERY GLAD. Cos it has been a tough day.

I just checked my email in school just now while searching for song lyrics and found out that my nanjing buddy had emailed me but becos of this dumb computer which I am using at home which can't read chinese, I could not read her email but my common sense told me not to delete that particular email. That's like the only good thing that happened to me today.

I just checked my mail again and there I received this email from a friend of mine. It's like any other typical everyday emails I received. But well this time, I kinda get enlightened. It's a chain email though but no way am I going to forward it.
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Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with y our smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
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More blog posts coming later. Tata.

Tuesday, September 5

More Ranting

Week of: September 3 - September 9
Friends
This is a great week to start something new, thanks to the lunar eclipse. Why not volunteer for a project or audition for the play? You'll have a great time and you might make some new friends!

Taken from Yahoo! Kids.

Realization struck upon me that I haven't done volunteer work for a pretty long time. Ok I may be involved in a CIP project currently but my idea of volunteerism is not like that la. I want to really go and help the needy and make them happy. Seeing them happy I will be happy too. Yep OK I shall go and find some volunteer work lobang. Wish me luck.

I still have to prepare for tomorrow's rehearsal and set the format for my poh final report. I need lotsa LUCK!

Suddenly the stress which disappeared after the exams rushed over to me again... I can hardly breathe.

Oh sheesh I just remembered about my Nanjing CSP project. OUR SURVEYS~!

OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO.

My heart hurts. My head spins. It's so hard to remain sane with all these things driving me crazy.

Busy Hols = No Hols

Things to focus on these few days (before flying to Nanjing):

1. COMPLETE FINAL REPORT FOR POH
2. Complete LA project.
3. Buy and pack stuff for Nanjing Trip
4. Tidy my study desk
5. Try to remain sane and not think too much

It never rains but pours. It not only pours, but drowns my ears in thunders and blinds my eyes with lightning.

GOSH

So many things are slipping off my mind... and yet I was out the whole of today happily enjoying myself. SHEESH.

I just msged Chip for some p.o.h design matters. Ah. I am such a sotong!

And I have been a really slacky leader for the Nanjing item. No rehearsal yet. Oh no. LA film. I need to discuss the reflection with YQ. What else do I have on my list but I have clean forgotten about it?

I think there's nothing else. Phew. There's p.o.h meeting tomorrow in the noon. Guess I will be waking up in time for brunch...

Oh man. My heart suddenly hurts. I have no idea why. There is this tinge of xin suan. Wheredahell did it come from. I feel sad, I feel miserable but hey. there's no reason for me to feel like that~ My eoy exams are over. I am free. I am enjoying my hols. But... uh I have no idea. I dont want to think about it laa. I am coping well. I need no addition into my life. yep yep. Listening to SHE's chu dian on fm933.

Ohya I found out that that song I've been listening to is Tank's wo men xiao shi hou. I love that song as much as I love yuheng's you ni duo hao. Both songs remind me of him. The him I dont want to remember but everywhere and everything reminds me of him.

Well well. Let bygones be bygones. We have all matured and grown into young adults. He has his life. I have my life. Some things are not meant to be la.

And yay I love mandopop. Was telling Serene in my letter reply to her that I love fm933 and 883 because they give endless supply of mandopop tunes to satisfy my craving. Heard that Jay will be releasing his new album on 8 Sep, the title of his album is something like fantasy again or sth...

ARGH. I cant sit around doing nothing. I will start thinking too much. CRAP. Actually I have alot of things to do. Just that I dont feel like doing.

This post is like a roller-coaster of mixed emotions. I feel xin fan. I feel sad. I feel everything that does not spell 'g-o-o-d'. Alright I am going to sleep. Just hope that I dont whip up some funny dreams.

Why must we grow up? Why can't some things stay the same? Why can't time just stop for goodness' sake?!

Sunday, September 3

Note to self:

To-do-list:

1. Do reflection for P.O.H final report and send to Boon Kian by tonight!! ***
2. Write letter replies to: Serene, Yuen Yin, Yu Jin, Cheryl
3. Arrange rehearsal for Nanjing Item- Zhonghua4j/k grp
4. Type out the lyrics which Mdm Nora helped to translate.
5. Tackle that p6 Maths sum!
6. Organize my movie quest data sheet (ha this is crap la. I just wanna catch some movies before I head off to Nanjing =p)

Parent-child Day

Like what I have promised last night, I will blog about yesterday's parent-child day and SC Handover Ceremony asap. And here I am. Waha. I just browsed through all the blog entries in my blog and I realised how wordy it is. Aw. Otherwise it's just plain quiz-based. I can fill a whole post with quizes... That's like so B-O-R-I-N-G. Other than 3 entries with pictures from Germany, pictures of doggies and pictures of rainbows, the rest are all words, words and MORE words. I am so sorry about that. From today onwards, my blog shall have more pictures! I like picture-based blogs =D

Well parent-child day. We had a talk in the hall by Mr Kiw on Filial Piety. We were shown this film about Emperor Penguins, featuring the hardships they had to go through in order to ensure the survival of their baby penguin. It was really touching at some parts and I almost cried. It's really touching to see the extent the parent penguins went to in order to protect their young. And the baby penguins are SO CUTE!

After that we went to the library and waited for the arrival of our parents. The conference was so-so laa. I kept asking my mom to question me about my portfolio but apparently she seemed very satisfied with what she was reading so yep (:

Here's a glimpse of my portfolio.









Mr Biollo was there to take photos. He took one for me and my mom when we were heading out of the library to go to the auditorium for the nanjing briefing. My mom said he is a nice guy!

The nanjing briefing was a bit too brief haha. We knew all that was said at the briefing already. Then it was funny seeing how every parent would whisper something to their child's ear after every point Mr Ang mentioned. My mom was one good example. She started reminding me about all kinds of things she can think of. Hello? I am still safely in Singapore ><

I have to go. Sheesh I didnt manage to type the dedications. Cos I needa go meet my uncle. auntie and cousins now. I havent seen my cousins for ages! I will blog about SC handover the next time I come online. I have more nice and hilarious photos to post! Cya.

Getting to know more about myself =D

What type of personality do you have?

Here is the analysis:

Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

True or not? Tell me ppl (: tag tag.

What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 85%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

yep yep. I do value my friendships very much (: but do my friends find me a nuisance ? :(

Jealousy Test

Jealousy Level: 50%

You harbor hidden feelings of jealousyYou easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!", but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"

haha! this is somewhat true. 'aw. so lucky. aw so good.' You can always hear me saying that.

Cinderella
How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?

You will never expect to control your boyfriend or husband. Your boyfriend and you will take turns to make decision and the decision is often acceptable to both of you. Whatever you want to let him know, you can just tell him straightforwardly. This is a good relationship, a pretty modern one.

whee. hopefully (:

Who is your dream guy?

Here is the analysis:

According to your answers; if you are not kidding, you are too complicated. Sorry, we are unable to offer the analysis. Press Back button on you browser, check ONE question that you were not completely sure and try again with a different answer that you think it would be correct.

sheesh? Am I really that complicated?! =S

Pick One

Here is the analysis:

Your future friend: You have a big sister confidence and leadership. So you friends are mostly vulnerable and always need your help. You can't resist helping these people and eventually you all will become good friends.

Your travel plan: You will travel to exotic countries like Tibet, India, Egypt. You enjoy visiting ancient ruins, lost woods and spending time in a hut in peaceful neighborhood.

Your future financial status: You are a big spender! You always spend on friends and luxury goods without feeling guilty. No matter how much you earn, you churn to match it. Your credit cards get thinner and thinner from frequent swipes. The figure in your bank account is not what you enjoy seeing.

The last period of your life: You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around.

This is the coolest quiz I have ever done! I merely picked out one out of two choices in each question and there, a whole analysis about me. C-O-O-L...

The House

Here is the analysis:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. You often come up with solutions to problems. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

Gosh this quiz rocks! You should go try it! It's the C-O-O-L-E-S-T quiz I have ever done.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test48.aspx

Your Working Style

You are friendly, adaptable realists. You rely on what you see, hear, and know first-hand. You good-naturedly accept and use the facts around you. You look for a satisfying solution instead of trying to impose any "should" or "must" of your own. You are sure a satisfying solution will turn up once you have grasped all the facts.

You solve problems by being adaptable, and often can get other to adapt, too. People generally like you well enough to consider any compromise you suggest. You are unprejudiced open-minded, and tolerant of most everyone--including yourself. You take things as they are and thus may be very good at easing a tense situation and pulling conflicting factions together.
With your focus on the current situation and realistic acceptance of what exists, you can be a gifted problem solver. Because you are not necessarily bound by a need to follow standard procedures or preferred methods, you are often able to see ways of achieving a goal by "using" the existing rules, systems, or circumstances in new ways, rather than allowing them to be roadblocks.

You are actively curious about people, activities, food, objects, scenery, or anything new presented to your senses. Your expert abilities in using your senses may show in:

a continuous ability to see the need of the moment and turn easily to meet it
the ability to absorb, apply and remember great numbers of facts
an artistic taste and judgement
the handling of tools and materials

You make your decisions by using the personal values of feeling rather than the logical analysis of thinking. Your feeling makes you tactful, sympathetic, interested in people, and especially good at handling human contacts. You may be too easy in matters of discipline. You learn far more from first-hand experience than from books, and do better in actual situations than on written tests. Abstract ideas and theories are not likely to be trusted by you until you have been tested in experience. You may have to work harder than other people to achieve in school, but can do so when you see the relevance.

You do best in careers needing realism, action, and adaptability. Examples are health services, sales, design, transportation, entertainment, secretarial or office work, food service, supervising work groups, machine operation, and many kinds of troubleshooting.

You are strong in the art of living. You get a lot of fun out of life, which makes you good company. You enjoy your material possessions and take the time to acquire you. You find much enjoyment in good food, clothes, music, and art. You enjoy physical exercise and sports, and usually are good at these.

How effective you are depends on how much judgment you acquire. You may need to develop your feeling so that they can use your values to provide standards for your behavior, and direction and purpose in your lives. If your judgment is not developed enough to give you any character or stick-to-it-iveness, you are in danger of adapting mainly to your own love of a good time.

what a long analysis. ah I am tired doing quiz. I shall end my self-discovery here.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test47.aspx

Saturday, September 2

My Personality Love Style

Since I havent upload the photos to my laptop, I decided not to blog about the parent-child conference and SC handover ceremony. Did some quizes. How true this is. Check it out.

What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.


Sheesh. All the quizes and even my horoscope is telling me that my expectations are too high. So high that I might miss out true love. Should I say 'dammit' or just leave it?

When Shu Min sees this she will go, ' You and your horoscope'. =P Shu Min's such a disappointment lor. Go see her blog. She should have put in more efforts. Tsk Tsk >,<

Hey baby!

I just watched the 'Hey baby!' show on Channel 8 hosted by Evelyn Tan and her husband, Darren. It's about marriage la. Yea I know kinda irrelevant to me... but whatever I like this type of lovey dovey show about others. wahaha.

Then there is this couple with the wife currently pregnant. Then they were classmates in primary 5. At a class gathering, the guy fell for the girl. Then he only plucked up courage after 5 years to woo her. 5 years leh! Alamak. Wait for 5 years. That's so different from the current-new-century guys =S

Anyway they are happily married. Yep. Yes the show is indeed very irrelevant but I think it's quite useful to couples... like how to spice up their marriage and maintain good communication. Ohya here's a tip:

There are FIVE love languages.

Which 5?

Here:

1. Gifts

2. Service

3. Verbal Affirmation

4. Special Moments

5. Body Contact

Hehe. Interesting eh. I didnt know that these are considered languages. But well you go judge for yourself which love language you prefer. I have no comments about that currently.

Purely single and not available. whee. singledom = freedom.

Yea anyway we had parent-child day and SC handover ceremony. I have a sudden urge to post some words of appreciation to the teachers and SCs. As well as comment about the bonding my mom and I did during the conference. But I think I have to go type out the minutes for my p.o.h meeting. I have procrastinated for too long. I shall blog about today's events asap. Hopefully with the photos I took.

Today's a fun and loved day (:

Friday, September 1

Non-stop Ranting. Sad life I have

Went to PP just now. Wasnt very enjoyable except that I bought yummy honey walnut (:

Came online to do p.o.h stuff but didnt manage to do any and i am going off now to tackle some Maths problem sums.

Dammit. My mood's still rotten. As rotten as a rotten apple.

I am off. tata.

Presenting a new blogskin (:

Yay finally finished editing the new template. Looks good huh? ;)

I had been sitting in front of the computer since noon. Had been an extremely sedentary creature today. Ah my diet's gonna suffer. And you know what? I woke up at 1pm today after sleeping at 1am last night. A whole solid 12 hours. It has been long since I slept so soundly and got enough sleep. I had some funny dreams last night though but I cant remember what they are. Just pieces of the dreams so it will be quite hard to describe them here.

I just had my dinner. Should be going offline soon then will be coming online later to type out the minutes for p.o.h meeting last night. And also to do my reflection for the final report.

I was hosting the pictures for my new blogskin at photobucket.com when I came across the photos taken at the Chicken Little outing last Dec if I didnt remember wrongly. We had lunch at Pizza Hut after watching Chicken Little at PS. And Vijay gave us a treat. I miss CPA camp and Chicken Little!!



If it is not from the heart, it is not worth doing...

HEAR ME RANT. ROAAARRRR

dammit la. I cant even take a break after my exams issit.

DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT

My brain cells already used up already laa. Still need to work on some sickening p6 maths questions. Today's the only day so far since the exam period that I can stay at home and read the newspapers with a calm and peaceful mind and heart then that stupid phone call just dammit ruin my mood to get updated on current affairs.

WHO'S THAT FELLOW WHO INVENTED THE DAMMIT TELEPHONE WITH SUCH AN IRRITATING RINGTONE?!

I wanted to go Parkway Parade to shop and get some stuff for myself but well forget it. I will just get nagged if I were to go out tonight. Moreover I am short of cash and I dont think I want to ask for it, I would just expose myself to the risk of getting scolded. wdh.

Now my mood's spoilt. My relaxed mood destroyed. My peaceful mind contaminated.

CONCLUSION: MY DAY IS RUINED. THE ONLY RELAXING DAY I HAVE AFTER SO LONG IS SPOILT. DESTROYED.

DAMMIT.