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Sunday, July 31

aw almost 12am

aw its almost 12am. just completed chinese essay on NKF CEO durai. yups. wrote lotsa crap scolding him. scold until super shuang. who asked him to be soooooo dishonest ? *disgusted look

anyway theres maths test tmr. didnt really revise anything this weekend. sigh chem test on tue and theres chem tuition tmr. hafta take bus to tuition all by myself after film editing lesson. cos dad not free. hmm but he wld be fetching mii home after tuition. yayy.

went to ruth's hse to do geog proj this afternoon. wore contact lens early this morning and went for a haircut. my hair's layered now. more layered and shorter. and my fringe kinda short too and my mom's like telling the hairdresser to cut shorter. argh.

after that went to mac for breakfast. alright calories but whatever.

then went home. and got ready. walked to mrt station. took a different route this time. erh yups. hmm was 5 minutes late. meeting the rest at eunos mrt. huishan was there. she didnt recognize mii at first. hahas. contact lens' fault laa >.<

when everyone came then took bus to ruth's hse. crapped and niaoed and chit chat at her hse. hahas. super fun and i laughed till i cried. really. the tears jus kept rolling and my eyes were watery the whole time there. was intending to wear contacts to sch tmr but decided not to anyway theres a maths test tmr. so it wldnt be much help if the lens jus popped out in the middle of the test. so no no.

hmmm well. i am tired with life. seriously am tired. someone... take me away. far far away from this place of memories. yups hahas. i am not sad. jus tired. and i am praying really hard that i dont flunk the maths test tmr. and may there be more questions on factor and remainder theorem and less on graphs (: please. wishing upon a brightly-shinning star*

hmm so yups. thats abt it. gonna catch my beauty sleep. tata for now (: goodnight...

missing you. thinking about you
i hate to see your backview.
i hate to see you leave.
if you could live for 100 days
i would choose to live for only 99 days...
cos i dont want to live for one day without you.
pooh&piglet <34eva

Saturday, July 30


shall end with a picture of basketball and rukaewa (: Posted by Picasa

pink roses. awww Posted by Picasa

i <3 tulips  Posted by Picasa

i love roses Posted by Picasa

gerberas- oso known as african daisies Posted by Picasa

daisy- my birthday flower Posted by Picasa

i love crunch too Posted by Picasa

one of my favourite chocolate... Posted by Picasa

wishing and wishing. for a fairytale a fall upon her. Posted by Picasa

artistic bear... art club rawks (: Posted by Picasa

my darling buddy. aww miss her. she's pretty eh? tall, pretty, graceful, talented, sweet, slim. what more do you want in a girl? Posted by Picasa

ah ha. my buddy from nanjing and my brother. height difference eh. my buddy's really tall. taller than me too :( Posted by Picasa

santa bear bear and erh flying bear bear? Posted by Picasa

hmm these related to valentine day Posted by Picasa

forever friends bear bear. these five are related to studies and cca. hehes Posted by Picasa

pooh namecard holder. but i used it to store medications like panadol and stuff.  Posted by Picasa

winnie the pooh mug. from mini toons. love it to bits... Posted by Picasa

honey-craving pooh LOL Posted by Picasa

pooh and piglet ~ friends foreva... Posted by Picasa

disney musicians =) tigger's trumpet couldnt be seen in this pic though.  Posted by Picasa

my collection of pooh and friends soft toys Posted by Picasa

pooh and friends tissue paper packing (: nicee rite. my favourite's the one on the top right. pinkk and white. perfect colour combination. Posted by Picasa

family portrait (: Posted by Picasa

piglet pooh tigger eeyore Posted by Picasa

in a blogging mood

hmm just completed the bio concept map. Forgot to bring my biology textbook and twelfth night home. just agar agar do the concept map lorhs theres a list of words given anyway. tikam laa. just wrote out the question for chinese essay onto the chi foolscap.

hm later going to popular and used the 15% discount voucher which would be expiring tmr. hmm maybe gonna buy somemore colour pens. feel like writing postcards/letters now but i have already replied jasmin and yuenyin's letters but no time to post them yet. py havent given mii her postcard. hm no one to reply to.

just got bitten by mosquitoes twice. argh. i am in a MUCH better mood now (:

my study table is in a terrible mess now. no one sms me now. nowadays there dun seem to be much ppl smsing mii. unless for enquiries on homework or projects. sadness laa. the sms i received this morning really spoils my mood. argh.

i just realised that i really love winnie the pooh and friends hahahas. i have a pooh coin purse. a piglet towel-like bag, a winnie the pooh mug. a huge winnie the pooh sticker in front of the dinning table. some winnie the pooh puzzles. 4 pooh plushies, 1 tigger, 2 piglet. lotsa pooh's stickers and i wan more pooh stuffs!! hehes. wheee. ohya i got a pooh glass. charmaine gave it to mii on valentine day. she gave mii this pooh in a pink monkey costume for my bday last year with marianne, clara and some others. yups. niceee. i still havent open the plastic wrapping lehs. hahas.

then other the other pooh and friends plushie were from timezone in causeway point. my dad played the machine thingy and caught them. heeeees. niceeee (:

Mum's love

Mum's love

One night, Sue had a quarrel with her mum, and without bringing anything with her, she ran out of the house. While she was walking on the street, she realised she had no money with her- not a single cent! As she continued walking, she felt a little hungry and cold. Then she came across a noodle stall. The steaming hot noodles smelt so good that Sue wished, at that moment, she could have a bowl of noodle. Sue was standing in front of the noodle stall for quite a long time when the boss of the noodle stall walked over and asked her, "Hey Miss, do you want a bowl of noodles?" Sue shook her head shyly and replied, "I don't have any money." "It's alright, I'll give you a treat," offered the owner. The owner had Sue seated as he cooked the noodles. He then served her a fragrant smelling bowl of noodles with a plate of vegetables. Sue ate a few mouthfuls and she started to tear.

"What happened, Miss?" the puzzled owner queried. "Nothing, I am just touched!" Sue continued while drying her tears, "Even a stranger I met on the street would offer to cook a bowl of noodles for me. But... my own mother... she chased me out of the house after a quarrel and told me not to go back again. How could you- a complete stranger - show me such care and concern while my own mother... she didn't care about me at all!"

On hearing these words, the owner replied with a sigh, "Miss, think of it this way. You are touched just because I cooked you a bowl of noodles. However, not only are you not grateful to your mother who has been cooking noodles and rice for you all these years, you even quarreled with her!"

Sue was stunned upon hearing this, "Why didn't I think of that? I am so grateful over a bowl of noodles by a stranger. Yet to my own mother, who has been cooking for me all these years, I showed not the least concern. I even quarreled with her over a trivial matter. Sue finished her noodle swiftly, thanked the owner and marched towards the direction of home. As she was walking, she thought over how she should apologize to her mother. Before she could say "Mum, I'm sorry, I know I was wrong. Please forgive me," she saw her tired and anxious looking mother, searching frantically for her. When she spotted Sue, she held Sue's hand and led Sue into the house, before Sue could say anything. " I have prepared a bowl of noodles for you, come in and eat it before the noodles turn cold," said her mother. Sue could not hold her tears back anymore. She started to weep in front of her mother.

At times, we may be very grateful to the people around us for the little gestures they show us. Yet to our close ones, especially our parents, we often forget their love and fail to treasure the selfless sacrifices they had made for us. While we may never be able to repay this valuable gift nor be required to do so, we should never take it for granted.

Do you realise that we are always so nice and polite to the strangers around us yet so rude and crude to our loved ones? Like you thank the stranger whom you asked for directions. You said sorry when you bump into someone. But wheres all the manner to your loved ones. Never take people for granted. No matter how willing they are to give all for you, NEVER take them for granted. Don't wait till its too late. Our loved ones might not be able to accompany us throughout our life journey, till the day when our hearts stop beating and the moment we close our eyes. So... appreciate, cherish, treasure and you will not regret or feel remorseful.

This applies to friends as well. Take the 'Leaf Tree Wind' story for example. http://o3.indiatimes.com/strangethoughts/archive/2005/02/04/64167.aspx
" Tree felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately and I didn't have to give up everything for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was good actor... and me a demanding director."

What a selfish guy. taking Leaf for granted and thinking that she would always be there for him. No matter how willing and much Leaf hoped to sacrifice for Tree, she would definitely feel disappointed that she was not appreciated at all. All her efforts seemed to be in vain. She waited and waited but all Tree did was have one girlfriend afte another, not acknowledging her presence at all.

Leaf knew very well that she liked Tree and that Tree liked her. But all she needed was just some assurance for her doubtful heart. And this dilemma accompanied her for 3 years. Its only when she could finally accept Wind then did she break free from all the suffering she had endured.

And for Tree, everything's too late and all's gone. He broke down and his heart aches like nobody's business. But just how many times have he seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit or Because Tree didn't ask her to stay. Think about it.

sudden enlightenment

my mood's still rather terrible but definitely better than last night. i shall not comment anything about LA film. all's gone. geminis dun tend to be pessimistic but really I GIVE UP. though its quite irresponsible of mii laa. WHATEVER.

was writing down the things i have to do this weekend and referring to my pupil handbook. then started flipping through it. realised that there are three enlightening stories at the back of the handbook. it was like sudden enlightenment. calmed down abit after reading it. i shall type out two of the three stories here which i considered to be really worth thinking about.

A cracked pot
A water bearer in India served his master by toting water from the stream to his master's home. He carried the water in two pots that hung on either end of a pole balanced across his shoulders.

One of the pots had a crack in it; the other pot was perfect. The perfect pot always delivered a full portion of water from the stream, while the cracked pot always arrived at the master's house only half full.

For a full two years, this went on. Every day, the water bearer delivered one full and one half full measures of water to the master's home. Naturally the full pot was proud of its service, perfect to the end for which it had been made. But the cracked pot was unhappy. It was ashamed of its imperfection and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After an eternity of what it perceived to be bitter failure, the cracked pot spoke to the water bearer one day. "I'm so ashamed of myself!", it said. "I want to apologize to you."

"But why?" asked the water bearer.

"For the past two years, this crack in my side has let water leak out all the way to the master's house, and I have been unable to deliver but half my load," said the pot "You do the work carrying me from the stream to our master's house each day, but because of my defect, you don't get full value from your effort," sighed the anguished pot.

Kindly, the water bearer told the distressed pot, "As we return to the master's house today, please notice the lovely flowers along the way."

As the trio went up the hill, the cracked pot noticed the winsome flowers - the sun glistering off their bright faces, the breeze bending their heads. But still, at the end of the trail, the faulty pot felt bad because it had again leaked out half its load, and again it apologized to the bearer for its failure.

But the bearer said to the pot, " Did you not notice that the flowers were only on your side of the path? Because I have always known about your 'flaw', I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we wind our way back from the stream, you have watered them. But every day I am able to pick these beautiful flowers to adorn our master's table. Were you not just the way you are, the master would not have this beauty to his house."

Everyone has imperfections, some more obvious, others less. The key to life is to find perfection within these imperfections. For teachers, look at the strengths of your students instead of dwelling on their flaws. Nourish these strengths and see the beauty it provides.

For students, do not linger on your own failures. Instead, find the inner potential in each of you and make full use of this potential. Do not be discouraged when someone does better than you. Believe that you are better in your own different ways and be proud of those ways.

Personally feel that this story is very meaningful. There is a saying that goes 'nobody is perfect, i am nobody'. that shows how people yearn to be perfect. But no one is perfect. No matter how perfect one wants to be, he/she can never be. Everyone has their flaws and talents. They are better in their own different ways and thats why they are unique. Thats why YOU are unique.

Imperfection makes life. Instead of dwelling on your imperfection, why not accept that and try to perfect your imperfection? 'Love is blind but friendship closes its eyes'- Love is blind and makes one accept everything about the person, and maybe only to realise what a jerk the person was after erm marrying him/her? thats why there are divorces. but friendship are different. Friendship sees the flaws in people but closes its eyes and accept the person for who he/she is. Thats why friendship could be everlasting. Someone who cant accept your flaws would not be your friend.

Do you realise that everytime you get to know someone better, you might start to dislike a person a little cos you realise his/her true self, the face behind the mask? But its because he/she treats you as a friend and not a stranger and feel that you could accept her flaws. Yups. Thats what friends are for. and you should really appreciate that (:

Life is short. Whats life without a few imperfections? Life's filled with ups and downs, cries and laughters, happiness and sorrow. But as you overcome all these, you would eventually realise that there are much more things in life worth appreciating and thats friendship and kinship. Think about it.

Friday, July 29

ARGH LA

argh. sickening. heartless. unkind. stoooopppiiiiddddd. bodohhh. baka. idiotic. WDHHHH.

i am super fed up now and on the verge of crying. things are getting sarky. and i conclude that a place with devils and no angels is just equivalent to hell. and some people just make earth seems like hell by not extending their helping hand when help is urgently needed.

superficial. ridiculous. sickening. illusion-giver. act cool = arsehole

i am currently in a really ridiculous mood. and listening to my mp3 player doesnt really help. maybe crying will make me feel better ohwells.

i dun wan to cry. i dun wan to cry for something not worth it. kaes fine. its worth it. its studies. but i dun wan to cry becos some ppl make it not worthy. i dun wan to cry. i really dun wish to let one tear drop for no valid reasons. no tears shall drop. i will be strong. dun be a crybaby. so DONT CRY.

who noe. i might cry to myself at night or worse i might cry in my slp. or maybe this is all a dream. i will wake up tomorrow into a world filled with angels. too romanticised. i think and dream too much. i really did. too idealized. its time to WAKE UP FOR GOOD.

how come i am starting to breathe so hard. asthma attack? not possible. maybe i will just stop breathing. this world is making mii breathless. it really is. or maybe its air pollution. WHATEVER. WHY NOT JUST LET MII STOP BREATHING.

well maybe watching tonghua mv now will just make mii cry my heart out. that would be wonderful. at least i dun have to keep my feelings inside mii. just let me cry my heart out. let my heart live and let me be dead and rescued from all these sufferings on earth. PLEASE.

why am i so angry. well you would noe better NOT to ask mii cos i am really in a terrible mood now. so if you dun wan mii to snap at you, pls leave me alone. keep away from me. yes. i will appreciate. it. but if you dun believe me, well TRY ME. DONT REGRET.

LA film oh no.

i am typing out the story plot for LA for the THIRD time. yes THIRD. why? cos first one was the love story. but we couldnt have any kind soul to act as the guy. the second one was on friendship. but its boring and wouldnt engage the audience. too typical you see.

and now the third one. its super duper typical mii cos its abt bball bringing a guy and a girl together. ohwells. but i am not acting. hehes.

hmmm today is friday and I LOVE FRIDAYS!!

first period was pe. chionged down to the canteen toilet to change into pe tee. then went to hall. erh no one was there. thot they wld be playing badminton. but nope i was wrong. they were at the volleyball court. played vball lorhs. kept hitting the ball the wrong way and i think i chased after the ball more than i hit the ball. argh. but i think vball's niceeee.

hm after pe went for LA at avt. continued watching twelfth night. super nicee kaes (: i love the film!!! aww it has such a happy ending if not for malvolio turning up all dirty and angry. booo for him laa.

after LA went to bsp room. forgot to bring my csp exercise book today. sigh. forgetful mii. forgot to check time table last night.

after that went back to cls to do erh geog. after recess was geog. ms pear asked hy, px and mii to go up to the board to draw the pyramids. mine was on immigration laws being relaxed. then i went up to the board again and again to change my drawing. argh. hahas super fed up. then ms pear asked mii to explain. i think i crapped leh. hahas.

yups. went for lunch with cecilia, jh and shiling. was late for art club. continued making the sculpture. ohya before that went to bookshop to buy pooh tissue paper. veh cute hehes. then cecilia did sculpture with june and vivian. then i started bending and cutting wires. chip and charmaine kept saying i got alot of strength. hahas magic. then commented that i have muscles. OH NO!.

sculpture making was fun with lotsa crapping and niaoing. went for break. then went back to clean up. waited at the foyer for py. taking bus home with her. yayys.

waited till around 530 then co dismissed. py was apologetic for making mii wait so long. hahas. its ohkae (: ohyea. u forgot to gimme ur postcard again!! hehes.

chatted on the bus. yayy. was kinda worried for my LA story plot on the way home. but ohwells. at least the story plot is half out now and jingles said that its ohkaes. so well.

gotta get back to writing the plot then the script - most IMPT. mdm nora havent reply when i can get the camera from her. wish mii, or rather my grp, luck (lotsa it) for LA filming.

LA film oh no.

i am typing out the story plot for LA for the THIRD time. yes THIRD. why? cos first one was the love story. but we couldnt have any kind soul to act as the guy. the second one was on friendship. but its boring and wouldnt engage the audience. too typical you see.

and now the third one. its super duper typical mii cos its abt bball bringing a guy and a girl together. ohwells. but i am not acting. hehes.

hmmm today is friday and I LOVE FRIDAYS!!

first period was pe. chionged down to the canteen toilet to change into pe tee. then went to hall. erh no one was there. thot they wld be playing badminton. but nope i was wrong. they were at the volleyball court. played vball lorhs. kept hitting the ball the wrong way and i think i chased after the ball more than i hit the ball. argh. but i think vball's niceeee.

hm after pe went for LA at avt. continued watching twelfth night. super nicee kaes (: i love the film!!! aww it has such a happy ending if not for malvolio turning up all dirty and angry. booo for him laa.

after LA went to bsp room. forgot to bring my csp exercise book today. sigh. forgetful mii. forgot to check time table last night.

after that went back to cls to do erh geog. after recess was geog. ms pear asked hy, px and mii to go up to the board to draw the pyramids. mine was on immigration laws being relaxed. then i went up to the board again and again to change my drawing. argh. hahas super fed up. then ms pear asked mii to explain. i think i crapped leh. hahas.

yups. went for lunch with cecilia, jh and shiling. was late for art club. continued making the sculpture. ohya before that went to bookshop to buy pooh tissue paper. veh cute hehes. then cecilia did sculpture with june and vivian. then i started bending and cutting wires. chip and charmaine kept saying i got alot of strength. hahas magic. then commented that i have muscles. OH NO!.

sculpture making was fun with lotsa crapping and niaoing. went for break. then went back to clean up. waited at the foyer for py. taking bus home with her. yayys.

waited till around 530 then co dismissed. py was apologetic for making mii wait so long. hahas. its ohkae (: ohyea. u forgot to gimme ur postcard again!! hehes.

chatted on the bus. yayy. was kinda worried for my LA story plot on the way home. but ohwells. at least the story plot is half out now and jingles said that its ohkaes. so well.

gotta get back to writing the plot then the script - most IMPT. mdm nora havent reply when i can get the camera from her. wish mii, or rather my grp, luck (lotsa it) for LA filming.

Thursday, July 28

ahhh chi test

there was supposed to be maths test today. first period. but not enough time so helmi postponed to monday. PHEW. havent really finished studying. and i am SO glad that i didnt wake up at 4am this morning to pia.

yesterday night watched channel 8 7pm show till 8pm. 8 pm borrowed my mom's hp radio to listen to music diary. well my zen neeon reception to fm 933 is lousyyyy laa.

then listened till 830pm. the story last night was boring laa. its sth like this boy and this girl met each other then erh they knew they were right for each other but they thot that since they are fated to meet they will definitely meet again one day. so they decided to depart and then if they happened to meet again and they still thought that they are suitable for each other they wld then get married.

then one day they walked past each other. cha shen er guo. and didnt see each other. then soon they disappeared into the crowd. ohwells. after that stef's yujian was played. didnt really pay attention to the story laa. after listening to the radio i realised i cant tahan le. too tired. so i rested my head on my study desk and slept. yes i jus slept in this posture. OMG. i seldom or rather never really sleep on a table before so yesterday i must have been very very tired. was supposed to wake myself up at 9pm but i woke up at 930pm. but i should be glad already that i didnt wake up at 630 am! LOL

then started revising maths. revised revised revised. then yy called mii then continued revising till i think 2am then slept. set my hp alarm to 4pm. wanted to continue studying. so i held my hp in my hand as i slept cos vibration mahs. then dun wan wake my grandma up oso. sigh then at dunno wad time, i realised my hp not in my hands so i woke up and tried to find it. it was on the floor. awww my poor phone. i found it upon spotting this blue flash of light. LOL then continued sleeping till 630am when my mom woke mii up. cos i switched off the alarm for 4am wahahahs.

went to school and pia lorhs. sigh. then in the end no maths test. wheeee. a combination of happiness, relief and disappointment laa.

hmm after maths was geog. copied notes lorhs. yups then ms pear called mii to answer question again!! ahhh then i read wad i wrote... ohwells. and ms pear called px 'jh' bwahhaas. gave us a fright lo. boooo

after geog was chem. no prac. did chemical calculation. niceeeee. mr lee taught before. whee

then recess. pia chinese. argh.

after recess's LA. watched twelfth night film. tried to revise chinese in the dark but i cant even see my own hand =.-

then tada. chinese test. we had a combined test with 3k in the LT. super uncomfortable kaes. hafta slouch then my pencil case kept slipping off the pathetically small table =.-

after school took bus home with peiyu. talked non stop wid her. hehehes. then told her the outline of liang zhu's film. i think i am a lousyyyy narrator. sorrie py, for making ur ears suffer. hehees.

yups then sth terrrible happened. walked home from mrt station. then to my corridor and then my grandma's not in. tried to search for my keys in my bag. but i cant find!! ahhhh i am locked out of my hse. called my mom. then she said she rushing home with my dad. and i waited about 1 hour outside my own house =.= then i did some hw and stuff. since when am i sooooo hardworking LOL

then my grandma finally came home!! wheee. argh. i shall never forget to bring my house keys again. but yesterday pia maths until blur mahs then left the keys on my table.

jus now after chi test oso blur blur. somemore terrible headache. cos the test was argh. super hard and not enough time =(

gonna download somemore nice songs into my zen.

yesterday jls showed us py's grp mv and tonghua mv after jess's grp did their presentation. then i went crazy. started telling jingles 'eh tonghua leh tonghua leh' (:

yesterday watch le not sad. hahas. cos so many ppl watching together. then yesterday quite happy oso. yups so no tears. only laughters.

but the mv still touched my heart (:

Tuesday, July 26


and... ending this picture gallery with the shadows of us (: Posted by Picasa