My Non-euphoric Life

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silent screams. I dont feel any better. But at least I am not hurting my vocal cord.

Life really gets on my nerves so much that I want to scream my lungs out.

All those crap like 'you'll never walk alone', ' i understand', 'friends forever'. ALL CRAP.

When u are at the lowest point of life, no one really cares you see.

You may say 'you never say how others know?'

Yea thats true. Then why am I ranting so much?

Just to raise awareness perhaps. For you not to step on my tail and get on my nerves so much that I use you as a chu qi tong. I am really capable of doing that, believe me.

I know everyone's stressed. everyone has their own problem. I KNOW I KNOW. It's already stressed knowing how stressed everyone is, and it will be great if we just stop adding stress to one another.

My life is sad la. I cant laugh at comedies, I cant have pleasant dreams, I cant laugh at jokes, ok maybe i can but definitely not wholeheartedly. I cant de-stress. I cant concentrate.

Whenever I laugh, I will end up tearing due to over-exertion of my tear glands perhaps. But thinking about it now, I think it may be becos I was making use of the chance to expend my tears since I feel way too numb to weep.

oh man this is such a wonderfully sad post. To think I was telling myself

'When the world trips you down, you pick yourself up!'

What an irony. Life's always ironic.

To be or not to be. All i want is to revert to the old 'me'.