feelings

sometimes i reallie get mixed feelings abt euu. mixed feelings which i dun understand and i dunno wad to do. you make me happy one moment and the next moment i wld be telling myself that i dun wan to talk to euu ever again. but after a while. my anger will be gone. and the whole cycle repeats itself. i hate myself for being so forgiving. i hate myself for not being able to substain my anger for euu. euu dunno how much your words can hurt. wad you told mii was not a dream. but neither is it a reality. i wld rather you dun tell mii anything at all cann. cos i noe euu dun care. euu cant be bothered. euu dun give it a damn. euu wont even catch mii when i fall. ohwells. i am on my way. i will take care of myself.

dao dai

wo shou gou le deng dai
ni suo wei de an pai
shuo de wei lai dao di duo jiu cai lai
zhong shi yao lai bu ji
cai ji dao wo ke ai
wo xiang yi lai er ni que dou bu zai

yin gai kai xin de di dai
ni gei de quan shi kong bai
yi ge ren jia ri fa dai
zao bu dao ren pei wo kan hai
wo zai xing fu de men wai
que yi zhi dou jing bu lai
ni lei ji gei de shang hai
wo shi zhen de heng nan shi huai

zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
er ni zhong shi tai wan ming bai
zui hou cai ba hua shuo kai
ku zhe qiu wo liu xia lai

zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
wo men mian qian tai duo zu ai
ni de shou que fang bu kai
ning yuan mei chu xi
qiu wo bie li kai

ni chong shi yao wo guai
man man ji hua jiang lai
wo de yan li que yi zhi diao xia lai
guo qu zhe me jiao dai
ni gai gei de yi lai
bei ni qing shou huan huan tui ru xuan ya

cong wo lian shang de cang bai
kan dao ji yi man xia lai
guo qu tian mi zai dao dai
zhi shi gan jue yi jing bu zai
er wo dui ni de qi dai
bei ni yi ci ci shuai huai
yi jing sui cheng tai da kuai
yao zhe me pin chou gen chong lai